Nervous? Who me? Damn right I am.Â A week away from her first competition, she is excited… but me, I am a total bundle of nerves.Â But I can’t tell her.Â Not so much about the competition itself.Â There will be plenty of those in the future (I think), but still… this has become a big deal.
LatteGirl likes to do a lot of things.Â Dancing, soccer, gymnastics, and so on.Â But few hold more than entertainment value.Â When she took up skating last year and decided she wanted to take lessons, I didn’t think much of it. Just another childhood activity, though one I have always enjoyed, and we always encourage her to try new things.Â But this one was different.
She has really taken to the ice and skating.Â Other than dancing, which she kept up, everything else has fallen to the wayside for this.Â When her instructor said she was good enough to start trying competitions, LatteGirl was informed that some things would have to give, because the commitment was far greater.Â She would have to go from 1 to 3 (sometimes 4) days a week of skating.Â That meant no more gymnastics, no more soccer.Â She agreed.Â Her dedication level to figure skating far exceeds anything else she has done (except for school where she views her test as Perfect and Not perfect and nothing in between).Â She is incredibly hard on herself and normally expects nothing but being the best she can be.Â And that is why I am nervous.
We have tried to temper her expectations.Â Tried to make her understand that no matter how good you are at something, there is always somebody else that is better.Â But at the same time, we don’t want to discourage her in any way.Â It is a fine line to walk.Â Â I am excited to see her out there competing, and am sure she will be fine.Â But, I am worried that she may get frustrated if she doesn’t do as well as she expects.
We are still a week away.Â I am sure at some point she will get nervous as well.Â While we have managed to get her on a number of different rinks, there are only so many in the area, plus she has to work with where her coaches are, so those rinks are far more familiar.Â Next week, we will be traveling to Yonkers.Â Her first time on the ice there will be her warm ups.Â I suspect it will be then (if not sooner) that her nerves will catch up with mine, but unlike me, she is gets overwhelmed by her emotions quite easily.Â I know all this, but still I feel so helpless at this point.Â I can be there for her, and I will be.Â But other than that, there is nothing I can do to protect her.Â I’m proud that she is taking these steps, but at the same time… helpless… and quite nervous.Â I guess I will just suck it up and hope for the best.Â It is about all I can do.
Update:Â I guess what I am trying to say is… all I want it for her to have fun and enjoy the experience.